a relationship will not cure your issues, no matter how hard young adult books and films try to push that notion on us. if you have depression or bipolar or anxiety or whatever, getting into a relationship isn’t going to cure that or make it go away. person with illness + relationship = ill person in a relationship. please don’t put all of your focus on finding someone to fix you, focus on fixing yourself the right way.

I woke up today thinking about and missing Jerome. It felt nice. I feel happy like a spark made a quick thump in my chest. Suddenly, I wanted to go home and see him. Hug him. Watch movies with him. Laugh. Swim. Although talking to him is even enough. I miss him so bad. His surprises. His super bentang jokes and pick-up lines. His sweet gestures. I wanted to hear how he misses me and how he loves me. And me saying the same thing. ❤️😊🙊

"I envy you, you don’t get really sad after you’ve gone through a break up, Mich." Vanessa asked earlier as we go for lunch.

To be honest I’ve been sad once. Oh no… not sad, miserable and desperate to be exact. Once. And I do not intend to be ever. Just never again. Well, to save the space and my time blogging about this I’ll just point out few reasons why.

🔸I make stupid decisions for myself and for everything.
🔸I waste so many days not eating properly. I just cry then fall asleep.
🔸I get really really silent. There are days I won’t even talk at all.
🔸I cry every where. In the bathroom, in my room, while eating and before sleeping. It’s all drama.
🔸You cannot talk to me in a sensible manner. I’m here but my mind is somewhere else.
🔸I get too paranoid. I don’t trust anyone. Not even myself.
🔸I will just talk about that person, write about him. Hate him then need him. Then hate him again and need him. The cycle will just repeat itself until I get tired.

If I ever do these things again, trust me I’ll be dead. Probably I’ll commit suicide. Frankly, I could have. Good Lord, I’m lucky I did not. Growing too obsessed with the idea that he will care about you no matter what is bullshit guys. You know it already…no, you can already feel it when he can’t even fight for something you believe you have had with him. Not even confront you. Not even say anything. Not even when you feel so low. It’s a bullshit kind of feeling. And I don’t want to be in that place anymore. I rather leave immediately — escape as fast as I can than be in denial for a very long time.

Anyway, good morning tumblr. 😁✌️

"Cheer up Michelle like what the fuck has happened to you." Yup, I totally need to cheer up but how should I — how should I be happy with all of these problems I can’t seem to solve. Some days, I just want to shut down and not think about the future. But how can I do that.



to recap:

  1. ana & elsa are rapunzel’s cousins
  2. it was to rapunzel & flynn’s wedding that ana & elsa’s parents were on their way to when they shipwrecked
  3. it was their shipwreck that ariel sees in the beginning of the little mermaid
  4. but they didn’t die, they washed up on an island and gave birth to tarzan, and were later killed by a cheetah

did i miss anything

yeah, you missed the part where you fuck up my childhood to the core